cant sleep. shouldnt be saying this but im having a hard time dealing with the fact of me checking to see if he is breathing and having no pulse is getting to me. i cant even close my eyes 
and when i do. i panic
cant sleep. shouldnt be saying this but im having a hard time dealing with the fact of me checking to see if he is breathing and having no pulse is getting to me. i cant even close my eyes and when i do. i panic