I just woke up from this freakily realistic dream. I bumped into this girl that I wanted to bang really bad when I was in high school. I was a senior and she was a freshman (and a good friends little sister)
anywho, in the dream i asked her if she was like a sophmore or whatever, and she said no im a freshman in college. Then i woke up all sad. Its been like 4 years since I graduated high school. 4 fucking years. I remember being a junior/senior and looking up at college freshman and thinking “God, they’re so old and maure and shit” And I remember being a college freshman thinking all the college seniors were the shit. Now ill be turning 22 in like a week, and should be in my senior year in college. WHERE THE FUCK DID THE TIME GO? I havent got shit accomplished, Im wasting away down here in OC, away from my friends, away from everything I love. I was supposed to be here for a summer. Its been almost a year and a half now. FUCK. This calls for drastic measures. Im sick of working and working and having nothing to fucking show for it (for the most part). Time to get shit done.
yes, high school did suck, but there were a lot of people that were mutual acquaintances. Not really friends per se, but people that you liked and thought were cool. I dunno, my head is being screwy right now. I literally rolled right out of be and posted this…
well you know sometimes I will argue a point I dont particularly agree 100% with. Money ISNT everything, to an extent. I dont really wanna live in a cardboard box, but if I dont have 10 ferarris in my garage I think I’ll be able to make it through life ok. Im gonna be able to get the money to come home soon enough, but its just frustrating how shit keeps happening and making it take longer and longer.
and as far as college is concerned, I really wish I would kept it together… but I also know a lot of people who got their 4 year degree, got stuck in a job they dont really like, got a tasts of some half decent money, then bought a house/car/blah blah, and now they cant quit the job they hate because they have so many bills they have to pay. Im scared shitless of that happenning to me, which is probably one of the reasons ive been fuckig around for so long and wont decide what the hell I want to do with my life…
its really not that bad, i like going to work. when i go to work i make a difference and get paid. with my extra money i can do fun things i never could before, i can donate money, all that fun stuff
being in a job isn’t bad at all as long as you like what you are doing. i think anyone here will tell you that
shit kid, bills are a way of life. get used to that. unless you have the $100,000 + in cash for the house, taxes, and upkeep you’re gonna have to loan it.
i bounced from job to job after college making dick, it took me a couple years but now i really like my job and money is not a problem anymore (knock on wood). you do not want to be the guy that peaked at 20.
i want to start a business as well. and i am going to, but its a marathon not a sprint. if i go balls to the wall now, i could either A lose everything or B burn out young. I have a plan and i know where i want to be at certain age marks. I need to develop still get my masters in business admin then i will work on taking over the world. the world is yours to take, but only if you want to take it! nothing comes easy
It just that there are SOOOO many things that I would kinda like to do, but nothing that im undyingly passionate about. Ive got a little while to think about it. Im moving out and gonna rent a pretty nice house in a really nice neighborhood just outside of OC. Prolly gonna stay here over the winter, save up some money, then come back to PA swinging.
