I’ve got a problem. I’m addicted to sex. I’m addicted to the hunt, the thrill of the chase, the thrill of the risk, the end result, everything.
Growing up, I was surrounded by people that were addicted to all sorts of drugs, and I saw how it effected there lives. Early on, I decided that I’d never become like them. With that said, I’ve only drank since I was 24, and was even kinda forced into that since the G/F that I had at the time thought it was really weird that I did not drink, so I started just to fit in. I’m actually glad that I did, because I’ve realized that I was missing all along, haha.
Never smoked a cigarette either, and only smoked weed once and never again, for similar reasons to the reasons that I tried drinking. I always asked myself ‘why would people do drugs and possibly harm their bodies’. Little did I know that I’m the fool…
I started having sex when I was 17. How many partners? No idea, lost track long ago. I’d estimate it to be somewhere between 75-90. Can’t remember any names, etc. Hell, if you lined up every chick on a wall that I’ve fucked, I’m sure that I would not recognize a good portion of them. And believe it or not, I’ve RARELY had sex under the influence of alcohol…
All of my bad decisions were made sober, and with a ‘this won’t happen to me’ attitude. Well, I’ve finally had a waking call. I’m DONE with unprotected sex.
If you guys pray, pray for me. I’m getting tested tomorrow morning, and I’ll have the results as early as Wednesday. If I’m clean, I’m going to devote a portion of my life to helping educate others, and another portion of it getting help, albeit through sex addicts meetings, whatever.
If I’m ‘riding dirty’, IDK what will happen. I really don’t. All I can say is that if I’m not here for awhile, you might want to check up on me if you really care.
Serious responses only please, I’m a big prankster but I’d never joke around about this.
Thanks everyone
Travis