Is suicide cowardly and selfish? (split)

I will tell you this. I am piss ass fucking scare of being dead, NOT scared of death. If that makes sense. The realization that every second you live your one second closer to the ONE AND ONLY THING you have 100% zero control over, 100% zero proof of what happens after you die. Everything else in life can be explained, I feel, its all physical and real. That right this scares the fuck out of me. BUT… that right there is why I live my life for every moment I have, for as long as I can, thus not making me scared of death.

Living you’re life in a constant state of “what if” is the biggest reason I do what I do. Thats the reason I twist the throttle and snap the clutch. Thats the reason I hit a jump in 4th gear at the track. Thats why I build pipe dream RWD jettas. Thats the reason I help people to attempt to accomplish their goals. Thats why I love my family, friends, enemy’s, and people I never met.