this will be the last account i make to try to square my name with everyone…
RUBICAN’T the apology i will apologize for being a dickhead when i was on here and i blew up at everyone , the reason i talked mad shit is because someone made a comment about being a jew and i am jewish so it naturally offended me because i didn’t get the jist of the joke so for that im sorry but back then i was like what 18? 19? i was a kid.
Yes i have learned and been thru alot since my banning and yeah the troll accounts were not meant to be taken as such but way to communicate with jim sometimes
others to just see what has been going on.
The only reason most users hate me is the whole bandwagoning thing which i understand due to the circumstances, but im trying to clear my name by doing the right thing, i went out of my way to do this and im going out of my way to give something back to the NYSpeed comminity by getting the hoodie thing together…
Jim is right that the hoodie money is not going to me… i had it set up as such to also earn trust in saying hey , if this guy goes out of his way to right his wrong and do something noteable that he didn’t have to for a forum that hates him based on a few things which are easily forgiveable then why not try to right the wrong and make thy self worthy of a come back?
There is no money making benefeit for me in the hoodies just a way to give back to you guys and say hey guys im sorry i was an asshat let me make it up to you by organizing this and making this work as a token of good faith
If its an apology that is needed tell me and i will write up a formal apology letter to the forum no problem but i do want to right my wrong with chino and the forum
thats how i feel and thats where i stand
Im a little more grown up then i was back in the day and i really would like to become apart of the forum again and just friends with everyone again so the drama stops.
yes i realize i asked to be banned but i was angry and didn’t have a cool head on my shoulders and i was a kid that thought i was a tough guy on an internet forum… im sure we have all been there… PLAIN AND SIMPLE I MADE A MISTAKE AND AM TRYING TO FIX IT AND RIGHT THE WRONGS AND MAKE UP FOR SUCH
hopefully there is a thing called second chances…
If each mod wants an apology then hey thats fine by me… but i wanted to put my word in here so that way people know i really am trying to right my wrong with jim and not be a fuck up and no pay him period.
if i wanted to do that i would have never ever came back to this forum anyways and would have just stayed away thus officially dodging my debt to jim