Now that I’ve said this is a serious thread it will no doubt go down in shambles, however I have some questions and I’m not sure why I’m posting this here, but I might as well.
I’ll start back in the day. Apparently when I was young, 5ish, my physician suggested to my mother that I might have ADD. She brushed it off, I was never put on meds or anything, and away I went. My whole life I’ve thought ADD was bullshit, just people relying on meds for laziness/lack of motivation/etc.
As I was sitting in class last night, taking notes, I just couldn’t shake the feeling that I could not absorb anything this dude was saying. I was processing it, writing it down, and figuring to myself I’d go over my notes and it might make better sense. I ask questions when I’m confused, and for the most part with a good explanation I can make sense of it, but I feel like I just can not retain information well. If you asked me to explain what I learned last night I just couldn’t.
No, I wasn’t high, I know my reputation on here and I haven’t been smoking hardly at all lately. By choice.
So I took one of those BS ADD quizzes online, scored 55, which is ‘moderate’, but wtf good is that? I don’t buy into ADD, but think there might be something wrong? But at the same time I can’t help but think I’m just fucking straight up LAZY so my mind bounces between what answers on that test I would give depending on which direction I’m going with at that point in time. If that makes sense. Essentially I’m answering questions either from the perspective that I just think that way because I’m lazy, or that I think I might have ADD. Therefore I consider the quiz utterly useless.
I have no problem focusing on tasks that I like to do. Working on my car, playing video games, etc. I have no issue saying ‘fuck yeah’ to doing something fun like that, but the second I’m given a task, or know I have to do something important, all I can think about is what I’d rather be doing, which makes me think I just lack discipline and am just a lazy piece of shit.
What I ask of you, Shift, is am I just a lazy piece of shit? Could there be something more to it? How do you go about finding out for sure? Do I just walk into my physician’s office and be like “yo negra I don’t like doing work at work or school but I like playing video games, give me some drugs that will make me wanna do werk”?
So Shift518, do your worst, and try to make sense of that nonsensical explanation/question, serious replies are appreciated, asshole replies will get edited at my will because I’m cool like that.