We’ve all been in the situation where the girl you love/want crushes you. Happend to me this summer and it lasted about 2 months on and off still seeing, talking to her while i knew she was still seeing other dudes (whore). Ended up being back with her and we’re happy and all now, got the wanting to be free out of both of our systems and blah blah. Worry about number 1 now dude (you). You have an awesome career and have that set and going for you, lifes biggest goal i guess to be financially comfortable and well off has been taken care of an thats a huge relief at least in my eyes. Take a vacation, listen to a lot of good music, beat us all up with the evo, hit the gym, troll babes on facebook. Just gotta keep the head up and im sure youll come out of this soon, still super super early and an extremely bad situation to deal with by yourself.