i know EXACTLY what you mean…i hate driving my car hard at all, not because i worry about something going wrong, not even because i expect something to go wrong, but because i KNOW something’s going to go VERY VERY wrong…and cost me more money that i do not have…
sorry to hear though man, get rid of it and start over…not ALL cars are out to get you, dont let it discourage you completely away from your hobbie…