PTSD...

I do have some weird sence of pride i took from it. I always thought about it… ‘what if…’ ect. Like i said, im not a fighter… but when some one i care deeply about is in danger, it was nice to know i would step up without thinking and defend them.

I consider it minor. I guess I didnt think it would take 7 or 8 months for the gravity of it to finally settle in, but minor none the less. Im safe, she is safe, and no one died. I would think if i killed him things would be alot different. Im still floored that I had the capacity to do it… I chased him down the street, and then let him go… I would have killed him; scary thought.